Monday, May 18, 2015

The Politician's Pawn - Chapter 2 - "Shut Her Up!"

Forget any long-winded intros this week.

If you read the first chapter, then you want to jump right into the next one. So without further ado, here's the next installment of "The Politician's Pawn"...


2 – The Unknown
  

“S
hut her up!”
Who said it, she wasn’t sure, and not because she wasn’t looking. Because she was. Her eyes were open and she was thrashing around, one minute reaching for one door and the next trying to open the other.
The reason why she had no knowledge of who shouted the words was because, in that moment, she didn’t care about such insignificant details. All she cared about was getting out of the car and far away from the terrifying men and wherever they planned to take her.
“Keep driving!” Someone else commanded, having to shout to be heard. “We’ve got this! Just keep driving!”
The SUV rolled on down the alley.
Kayla kept on screaming, visions of undesirable fates filling her head and her heart and her stomach and every iota of her being so that she couldn’t think straight. Even when the first man – the one in charge – wrapped a thick arm around her neck to restrain her, she kept screaming. Even when he tightened his hold enough for her to lose her breath, she kept struggling.
He was telling her to calm down. To quiet down. That it would all go a lot easier if she didn’t make a fuss.
What he didn’t mention, she recognized, was that she wouldn’t get hurt. Sure, he had given his word on the subject back at the apartment, but that very recent past barely made an impact on her overwhelming present. Instead, she found herself concentrating on the lack of guarantees coming out of his mouth now. There were no more pledges that she wouldn’t end up with a bullet in her brain. Just that she could make things worse if she didn’t cooperate.
It wasn’t a comforting thought. And so Kayla didn’t back down, didn’t stop fighting until she actually lost consciousness.
She knew she wasn’t out for very long since she still recognized where they were when she came to. They were on Route 695, not five minutes down the road from where she lived in Catonsville, Maryland. Dark though it was, she could see familiar landmarks and signs out the window. Plus there was only one road close by that had five lanes, even for just a few miles.
That was what she noticed first. It took a stupid second longer for her to understand that her wrists and ankles had been bound with thick grey strips of duct tape. Another piece had been placed across her mouth.
Kayla brought her arms up against her chest and started crying. Behind the gag, the noises came out more like a bunny’s squeals than any sound a grown woman should make.
“See, this is why I don’t like doing girls,” the man on her right grumbled. “They cry. I hate it when they cry.”
“Stop crying. You’re going to be okay,” Blue Eyes told her, his voice firm and oddly gentle at the same time. It was like he was talking to a distraught toddler.
Regardless, his order didn’t make her stop. It couldn’t make her stop. She was too scared and felt far too small.
The underling who’d declared his aversion to feminine tears slid his large calloused hand around the back of her neck. He couldn’t completely circle her throat that way, but that didn’t seem to be his intention anyway. Leaning in close, his breath sent a series of wretched thrills down her skin.
“He said stop crying,” he growled. “Or I’m going to give you something to cry about. Understand?”
The words and his touch made things so much worse. Kayla tried to lean forward out of his grip. And when he wouldn’t let her go, it threw her into that much more of a panic attack. Her tears came out that much faster and her hindered screams that much louder behind the gag.
“You’re an idiot,” the blue-eyed man snapped. “Stop it.”
The other man scowled, his fingers hesitating for one more second in their grip before he released her.
Her whole body still heaving, Kayla tried to bring her knees up to her chest. It would have been an entirely useless act of protection even if she could have managed it, but she found it impossible with her ankles restrained the way they were.
The first kidnapper peered down at her with seeming sincerity. “Hey, hon.”
She barely glanced at him.
“Lucy, look at me.”
It was the second time he’d called her that, a decent indication that he thought it was her actual name. The realization made her tilt her head his way, her eyes big and watery.
“Nobody’s going to touch you, okay? Not like that, I mean. And not at all if you just calm down and do as I say.”
“Speak for yourself.” The driver paused to leer into the rearview mirror. “She’s prime picking if you ask me. I like ‘em bigger than a twig.”
“Shut up! That’s an order,” her consoler snapped. He seemed genuinely disgusted and even angry before he turned back to Kayla. “Ignore him. He’s all talk. That’s not what any of us is here for. Our job is to get you from Point A to Point B alive and as unharmed as possible. That’s it. Alright?”
He paused to let her nod or shake her head.
Kayla did neither, though she did quiet further except for a sniffle every few seconds.
“You’re just going to get yourself hurt if you struggle. We’re four, specially trained men against one little girl. So do yourself a favor and stop fighting. Can you do that for me?”
Kayla didn’t care about doing anything for him or his friends. But now that someone was speaking calmly to her without threatening her within an inch of her life, it was possible for her to see the ridiculousness of fighting them right then.
They were barreling down Route 695, coming up on the lower of the 95 splits. Even if she could manage to open one of the doors, there was still no way out alive. So she might as well just save her energy for a better opportunity. If it came along.
“Lucy, can you do that for me?”
She did nod this time. Maybe, she thought, she could explain to them that she wasn’t Lucy once he took the tape off her mouth. She could make them understand how they had taken the wrong girl. That they’d meant to snatch a different blond who couldn’t quite comfortably fit into her size-ten jeans after one too many stressful shifts and subsequent brownie binges.
“Good girl.” The words were patronizing, though the tone was matter-of-fact.
She swallowed hard and sniffled again.
He reached into his pocket to pull out a little packet of tissues, holding one up to her. “I’m just going to wipe your nose. Is that alright?”
It was such a simple question with a whole host of potentially rotten ramifications.
 He gave her a small smile of understanding. “Don’t worry. I like brunettes.”
Kayla stared at him for a moment, trying to figure him out. On the one hand, he was the only one in the car being nice to her. On the other, he was still part of a gang that had barged into her home and kidnapped her. And he was the only one of them who had choked her into unconsciousness.
For all she knew, he was one of those sickos who got off on convincing women he was their friend, then chopped them into tiny little pieces.
But she did have a trickle of snot sliding down her nose in a particularly irritating manner. So she nodded. He might be one of those sickos. But he also might be the opposite: someone who liked to think he was a good guy even though he wasn’t.
That kind of person could be manipulated if need be.
“You’re so soft, Evans,” the man on her other side chuckled.
Holding the tissue to her nose and gently cleaning it up, Evans didn’t so much as deign to glance his way. “That’s funny coming from you. Weren’t you the one just whining about not being able to take girls crying?”
He pulled the Kleenex away and shoved it into his other pocket, then reached for a new one. “Your eyes?” He asked, holding that one up for her to see too, as if by doing so he could prove his pure intentions.
Her eyes filled with more tears, the thought of him wiping them away almost undoing her all over again. Her hesitation may not have been conducive to using him later on, but she couldn’t help it. She was winging the whole situation as best as she could, trying to cope with each new dreadful decision as it came along.
Maybe if someone had warned her in advance – if she had gotten the chance to prep for being kidnapped in a ridiculous case of mistaken identity – she could have conveyed gratitude with convincing sincerity. But since nobody had bothered to train her for such absurdities, she could only handle herself so well.
It took some effort, but Kayla managed to pull herself together enough to nod again, giving him permission. Yes, he could wipe away her tears.
She steeled herself for the contact, sweeping her lashes down and pressing her arms in more tightly to herself. The movement made the spot ache where he had gripped her before, but she gritted her teeth and otherwise kept still.
Evans’ touch on her face was light but not too light. There was nothing suggestive or scary about the way he dabbed at her eyes and wiped at her cheeks. That was except for the fact that he was a thug with a mask and a gun who had kidnapped her. Other than that, she didn’t feel uncomfortable with the experience at all.
He didn’t linger, dabbing at a few tears that had made their way down her chin, and then once again pocketing the used tissue.
That was it, but it was enough.
Kayla shivered in the resulting silence, watching him as his mouth twisted in a telling way. It was almost like he wanted to say something encouraging but wasn’t sure what would work under the circumstances. Ultimately, he gave up trying to find the right words, so she never found out one way or the other.
As the minutes turned into miles, she found it utterly impossible not to contemplate the dozens of ways they could kill her. She’d blame her occasional foray into crime dramas for those morbid musings, but something told her that her imagination would be running wild regardless, even if all she watched were Disney movies and musicals.
Bad things happened. It was part of life. Inescapable really. Any semi-sane adult knew that.
But normal bad things were supposed to happen to normal people like her. The nuisance of a stubbed toe, the embarrassment and financial stress that came with losing a job, even the pain and misery of cancer. Those were to be expected to some degree or another. At least, considering national statistics, she should have had a much better chance of being diagnosed with a malignant tumor than getting kidnapped.
Then again, the problem with statistics was that they only gave best-guess guidelines about the future. They didn’t ensure anything. Someone could go into surgery for a routine operation, one with a near-hundred percent survival rate. And yet they could still end up falling into that ridiculously small percentage of people who ended up dying of some unexpected complication.
What were the statistics of a kidnap victim being released alive and unharmed? Kayla’s mind raced to find something even remotely comforting.
Fifty-fifty? Sixty-forty? Worse? Better?
She seemed to recall hearing something about the odds of survival increasing based on a few different factors. Like the age of the victim, their race, and whether a hostage negotiator was involved or not.
At twenty-eight, she didn’t think her age was going to play any sympathy cards for her. Twenty-eight year-olds got killed all the time. Stabbed. Shot. Beaten to death. Their corpses found in dumpsters and in their apartments or out in the woods.
She read the news. She knew how it could be for the unlucky few.
Stop going there!
She couldn’t go there. It wasn’t productive.
Though exactly what would be productive, Kayla had no clue whatsoever. Bound the way she was, she didn’t have many options to begin with. Nor would she even if she was free to move her arms and legs and lips in the space left between one scary man and a slightly less intimidating criminal.
Then there was the fact that any attempt on her part at compliancy might mark her an easier target still for unwanted attentions. Yet not being on her best behavior could make them think twice about releasing her.
It wasn’t as if she had seen any of their faces. Even the unmasked driver was largely obscured from her view thanks to the low lighting both inside and outside the Suburban. She would have no helpful details to tell the cops if she was set free right then and there. No features, no license plate, no names other than Evans. And a name like that wasn’t very helpful anyway, even if it wasn’t an alias.
She could only hope they understood all of that. As far as she could tell, there was no reason to kill her. Not unless they were a lot dumber or more sadistic than they appeared to be.
Kayla wished she could ask them where they were taking her and for what. She had no idea from the details she’d gleaned so far.
She was already certain they were a professional team though. Military grade. Not any normal gang of thugs.
Just one clue pointing her in that direction was how they had kidnapped her out of an unassuming Baltimore County neighborhood, hardly a bastion of illicit activity. There might be the occasional stabbing or shooting just across the Catonsville line, a few miles down by the seedier apartments in her general area. And it hadn’t been that long since the FBI arrested a high-school student who, recently converted to Islam, had sought to set up a bomb just a ten-minute drive away from where she now lived. That had been before she moved in, but she had heard about it from secondhand sources just a month ago.
Kidnappings, however, weren’t Baltimore’s style as a general rule. Not of non-kids anyway. Kidnappings were too sophisticated for the gangster and gangster-wannabes who trolled even the nicer streets looking for unseemly opportunities. Ambushing wandering pedestrians with makeshift clubs and beating them into a pulp: That was more the city’s speed.
Her kidnappers didn’t appear to be from Baltimore anyway, judging by how they kept driving away from it. Though Evans had called her “hon” before, a definite Baltimorian term, they were already past the Columbia exit down Route 95 South. If they kept at it, it would be hard to conclude she was going anywhere but D.C., a place where both sophisticated and common thuggery abounded.
She didn’t know how correct her conclusion was, but going to the capitol felt like one more indication she was in the middle of something far bigger than a criminal jaunt. Otherwise, she rationalized, they would have done whatever they planned to do with her and then dumped her somewhere simple. Someplace convenient, or at least closer.
The sound of sirens split the relatively silent commute outside. The four men tensed up, as did Kayla, all of them thinking the same exact thing, though with two very different viewpoints.
She found herself praying that she was about to be saved. For all she knew, someone had seen her shoved into the SUV after all and reported its plates.
“Don’t get your hopes up.” Evans shot her a strange glance she couldn’t quite read. “Those sirens aren’t for you. There’s no way they could be.”
But he still brushed his hand beneath his coat to where she assumed his gun was. He must have stashed it away during the brief moment she was unconscious.
Kayla gulped in fear and acknowledgment, though the threat wasn’t enough to completely squash her dream of rescue.
The sirens increased in volume, louder and louder still. She could see the red and blue lights flashing wildly as the two cop cars drew closer. They were racing down the far left side of the four-lane highway, prompting what traffic there was to get out of the way fast.
The SUV was already in the furthest lane to the right, inconspicuous in both its appearance and speed. And so it escaped notice while the police officers raced past Kayla en route to save somebody else.
Evans shot her a somewhat sympathetic glance, part guilt, part relief.
She despised him in that moment. The others, for all she could tell, might be sociopaths. But he seemed to have at least some degree of human feeling, which he was directly disregarding. It made her wonder how he would like it if positions were reversed. If he was the one being held captive with no say over what happened to him, would he be craving pity or just hoping for release?
Kayla doubted he would appreciate the meaningless show of sympathy any more than she did. And so she hated him for not acting on the nobler sentiments he had to possess.
“No need to worry.” The lecherous driver’s voice was once again cocky. “I told you I’d get us away clean.”
Kayla wanted to punch him. And then get away from him as fast as possible. Out of all of them, he was the one scaring her the most so far, despite how she hadn’t even seen him hold a gun, much less wave one in her face.
“We’d better be. I’m not going to jail for this,” the man up front with him said.
She couldn’t help but notice how pragmatic his voice sounded. Despite the sentiment he’d just expressed, he sounded nothing short of calm.
“We’re not going to go to jail,” Evans assured with wry certainty. “And even if we did, we’d be tried in Maryland, a state that’s notoriously lax on its criminal element.”
Kayla took note of the words he used. They weren’t the kind of vocabulary someone without at least a high school diploma would throw around. If she had to guess, she’d say he had a college education to some degree or another.
“Yeah.” That was the driver again. “But I don’t see a bunch of Caucasian ex-military types going over well in a Baltimore court with Baltimore jurors.”
She stowed all that away too. They were more details she could possibly use to make sure her kidnappers got what they deserved, which was exactly what they were so determined to avoid. Though she also recognized, with a painful twist of her stomach, that they could just as easily be details that got her killed. The more they knew she knew, the more of a liability she became.
Evans must have been thinking something similar. “Rod, you really need to learn to shut up.” The words were cold, as was the delivery.
Kayla risked a glance at Rod’s face in the rearview mirror. She could just see his brown eyes and the bridge of his nose, but she could tell he went into an immediate snit at being told off. Glancing into the mirror himself a second later, he caught her staring. And while she looked away as soon as she realized that connection, it was too late.
“What are you looking at?” He snapped, adding in one particular choice term. He directed his next words at his team leader while still distinctly glaring at her. “Can someone blindfold her already?”
The way he said it, he sounded like he was about two seconds away from ordering cement slippers for her.
Evans threw a few insults right back at him, ending with, “She’s looking at you because you’re making an idiot out of yourself.”
Kayla cringed even more at the harsh language. The last thing she wanted was for any of them to get angry. Though it did cross her mind that, if they started fighting among themselves, she might have a greater opportunity to get away.
Reality body-slammed that hope in the next instant, knocking it out cold. Her earlier observations about them being a fully functional team hadn’t dissipated, argument or no argument. There was still an obvious leader who knew exactly what he was doing. And his men seemed well-trained in the art of taking commands, making the larger unit that much more dangerous.
“She can’t see any more of you than she can see of us,” Evans continued. “So close your stupid trap and keep driving.”
With a final bitter glance at Kayla, Rod did as he was told. He shut up and refocused his attention on the road. But she had a bad feeling that, if there was going to be any backlash, it wasn’t going to be aimed at his leader. She was going to get the brunt of it somehow, someway.
Another shudder. Another tear. Another sniffle.
Kayla had to wonder what in the world she had done to get herself into this mess. Was there something she could have done differently to avoid being trussed up with such people? How had she managed to give the impression that she was Lucy, who she presumed was their actual intended target?
She reviewed the past week inside her head, but no single encounter jumped out at her. Life had seemed normal up until the four masked men came crashing into her life. Normal and even a bit boring.
With both her boyfriend Cory and best friend Rachel out of the country, Kayla’s last few days had been filled with little more than work, sleep and lounging around on her couch. She’d considered calling up a friend a few times, but had chosen the comforts of temporary social hermitage instead. So her phone log was empty overall.
There were no strange calls she could recollect, no odd run-ins. Even the hospital where she worked had been quiet her last four shifts, which said something. There was usually some drama happening there on a weekly, if not daily, basis. If it wasn’t a meddling relative, then it was some prescription mix-up between the sometimes arrogant doctors and the overworked, unsympathetic in-house pharmacy.
Or a patient had escaped from the psych ward.
That last kind of occurrence didn’t happen too often. The psych staff was usually very well organized. But according to what she’d been told, it wasn’t altogether unheard of, and there was always the possibility of it happening again.
Thinking about it, an encounter with even one of the less stable mental patients sounded like a much more desirable experience than the one she was living out. She wished to God that someone had given her a choice in the matter. The way she’d been left out of such a major life decision made her angry.
Very angry, in fact.
Kayla seized onto the new emotion with a tenacity not unseen in her hospital’s mental institution. Anger was a much more preferable feeling than her all-encompassing panic. If she was furious about her current situation, she wouldn’t be quite so quick to wonder what was still up ahead for her.
But what is still ahead?
The single question melted her fury away, leaving her alone and defenseless once again. Kayla forced herself to take a deep breath through her nose. It was a calming technique she’d counseled more than one patient to use for just about every possible reason.
Afraid of needles? Look away and take ten breaths. Nervous about the lab results coming back? Same thing. Need to clamp down on that anxiety the next time hubby or wifey or mama, or that dratted nephew who’s just waiting for you to die and bequeath your inheritance, walks into the room? Rinse and repeat.
The trick had a strong track record no matter what the issue.
Now it was her with the fear of getting stuck. And what kind of a nurse would she be if she didn’t abide by her own advice? A hypocritical one, that’s what. And who wanted to be a hypocrite? Certainly not her, she chided herself with little effect.
Still, she closed her eyes and breathed. In and out. In and out. Four times. Five times. Six.
The SUV swerved, jarring her out of her attempted meditation.
Rod swore. Evans and the other men reached for their guns and, heart racing all over again, Kayla craned her neck toward the window to see what had just happened. But in the relative black of the winter night, she couldn’t make out much.
Rod cursed again, adding some unflattering descriptors about Maryland drivers and their parentage.
Then everyone settled down again.
Since none of her forced car-mates were swearing at their own driver, Kayla could only determine that the near collision had been the other vehicle’s fault. She couldn’t help but wish some damage had been done.
Local drivers were known for their reckless behavior behind the wheel, so much so that they were often ranked on various lists of the country’s top ten worst drivers. So why they couldn’t live up to that expectation tonight when she needed them to, she didn’t know.
She’d even suffer a concussion and some lacerations if it meant the car would stop. She’d suffer a lot more if she could just take in some fresh air, unhindered by the faint but distinctive odor of four men enclosed in a small space.
They were fast approaching one of those huge, green road signs that stretched up above incoming traffic, and she stared at it despite knowing what it was going to say. Stay in the two left lanes, and they’d be heading toward Washington and Richmond, Virginia, on 495/95 South. If they kept to the two right lanes, then they were off to Silver Spring or Bethesda on 495 West.
Depending on their final destination, it didn’t much matter. They could get to D.C. either way, she knew. And either way, they were taking her further and further away from her comfort zone.
She’d been to the capitol once or twice, checking out various museums and seeing some of the sights. But that didn’t mean she felt comfortable navigating it.
If it was a matter of escaping, and she did somehow manage to give her captors the slip, Kayla might have a fifty-fifty chance of getting somewhere safe. That left equal opportunity to wind up dead in a back alley instead of dead in a Suburban or dead wherever they planned to take her.
D.C. was a fascinating city with plenty to do and see, but it could be every bit as dangerous as delightful, especially in certain areas at certain times. When it came down to it, she really wasn’t sure she didn’t feel safer with the present company. Everyone within a hundred-mile radius understood how severe Washington’s crime statistics were, against women in particular.
Rod didn’t budge from his lane, steering them toward Silver Spring.
Kayla had a friend who lived there. It was a cute little town on the edge of the capitol, though still within the Maryland line. Since moving down to Baltimore, she’d gone to visit a few times, taking long walks through the main thoroughfares, wandering into this shop to peruse the merchandise or that bar to shoot some pool.
The lighthearted memories made her wonder whether she’d ever see the place again. Not that it made much sense, but she felt like it was a long-lost keepsake she couldn’t bear the thought of leaving for good.
Since she was normally a rational adult, Kayla did recognize how close she was to slipping back into sheer hysteria at any moment. It wouldn’t take much to send her over the edge again. A look could do it.
A touch even more so.
Of course, that’s when they brought out the blindfold. As if they had read her mind and were being brutal for brutality’s sake.
“It’s time to put this on,” Evans informed her, his large outstretched hand holding a black bandana she hadn’t noticed before.
Where he’d gotten it from, she didn’t care. It was the fact that he had it all that bothered her so badly. Losing her sense of sight was not something she wanted to add to her kidnapping experience.
Calm, Kayla. Be calm. You can do this. You can keep yourself together.
The admonition barely helped.
Evan’s eyes narrowed in contemplation in response to her visceral reaction. He must have seen the panic on her face and in her posture, how every fiber of her being was geared to fight.
It didn’t matter that she was restrained and wouldn’t be able to do anything but roll if she somehow managed to get out of the car at all; Kayla didn’t want to give up that tiny bit of control she still possessed. The ability to see a moment or two into the future was all she had left, to gauge her surroundings and make logical assumptions about what was up ahead.
She shook her head, trying to force the word “please” out from beneath the duct tape.
“This isn’t permanent,” he assured. “The only reason you have to wear this is so you can’t see where we’re going. That’s a good thing. Keep that in mind. It means we’re planning on letting you go.”
His words should have made her feel better.
They didn’t.
“I’ll take it off soon enough,” he went on, trying to coax her into calming down. “I promise.”
As far as she could tell, he seemed sincere. But when he leaned forward again, she flinched away for a second time. His chin came up a bit, and his eyes widened to regard her reproachfully.
“Don’t fight me,” he told her in the tone of someone who was used to being obeyed. The way he said it wasn’t mean or even completely lacking in compassion. It was, however, firm. “The only person you’re going to make it worse for is yourself.”
It wasn’t a threat when he stated it with such factual precision. Much more like an acknowledgment. But it had Kayla’s imagination conjuring up several unpleasant scenarios regardless. Her shoulders shook with defeat as she braced herself to see nothing but black.
Not just dark shadows and masked faces. But pure, unadulterated darkness.
She closed her eyes, which were moistening up again.
He didn’t tie the bandanna too tightly around her head. It wasn’t a deliberately cruel pressure, though it was quite snug.
Kayla tried to be thankful for that while he knotted the folded cotton against her hair once, and then once more. It constricted a little more against her eyebrows and the bridge of her nose, though still not enough to hurt. Just enough to block out what little light there had been left. He was obviously taking no chances in letting her see where they were going.
She hoped that was the only thing he was preventing her from seeing. For all she knew, they were going to slit her throat with a razor sharp knife at any second. They might be gearing up for a Satanic ritual or some other kind of evil act involving off-duty nurses and black SUVs.
No. No. No.
She had to stay positive.
He just showed you he’s not completely unfeeling, so you don’t need to go there. You don’t.
That advice was easier given than taken, so she tried again.
You don’t. You can be calm. You can keep it together.
Kayla repeated the mantra in her head several times, then switched to counting instead. But by the time she got up to four hundred and fifty-nine, she could still imagine a knife’s edge teasing her exposed neck.
Her blindfold felt damp with more than just tears.
Forcing herself to keep counting at a methodical pace for what felt like a very long time, she reached two thousand. Then she gave up, wondering how long they meant to keep the bandanna on.
The noises and sensations indicated that they were still on the highway and moving at a decent clip, so they must not have gone into one of the suburbs or even into D.C. She thought they should have reached the capitol, with its traffic and overwhelming number of stoplights, long before she stopped counting. It was difficult to tell for sure when the only thing she had to rely on was her internal sense of time, which couldn’t be at its best right then.
If by chance she was right though, that meant they were taking her into Virginia. Or perhaps just driving around to confuse her? After maybe another ten minutes, Kayla gave up on guessing at her whereabouts, certain only that she was lost.
Lost and growing more exhausted. Her limbs were fast falling asleep too. She kept trying to twitch them, which didn’t help much at all.
After what felt like an entirely unfair amount of time, they pulled off the highway and onto a much slower road, one with stop signs and stoplights. She could tell the two apart based on how long each took, an obvious ability that helped her stay somewhat rational for some reason.
Kayla didn’t bother to determine why.
Then they were decelerating even more, crossing into some residential area, she imagined. Either that or to a garbage dumpsite. Her bound hands twitched with the almost uncontrollable urge to pull at her blindfold. For all she knew, she was living out her last moments.
Her heart started beating out an impossibly fast time inside her chest again, and it managed to pick up tempo further when the Suburban came to a stop altogether.
Her legs and arms were shaking badly all over again. Her brain was just as active, taking sharp note of how the engine stayed on.
“This will just take a minute,” Evans told her. “Sit still for now.”
He wrapped one large hand around her arm below her elbow, making her jump at the unexpected contact.
If she only had the ability to speak, she was sure she would have asked why they were stopping, albeit not very calmly. Since she had no such option, however, she communicated her thoughts and feelings in the single way she could.
She struggled. It was a pitiful jerking motion that got her nowhere.
“You need help with her?”
It sounded like Rod, and it came from the driver’s seat, both good indications that it was, in fact, her horrible chauffeur offering to get up close and personal with her.
That increased her anxiety levels by an exponential amount, making her fight with even more desperation, if her inconsequential movements could be called fighting. Maybe it should have been a cue for her to cease and desist so as not to invite his assistance any further. But after sitting still for what she was sure was more than an hour in an overall silent car with her kidnappers, she was filled with far too much nervous energy to rein her movements in so easily.
“I got it.” The leader of the group didn’t quite sound bored, but he also didn’t sound like he was breaking a sweat restraining her.
Both car doors on her right opened, one after the other. Kayla could feel the seat beneath her shift from more than just her struggles, indicating that the man on her other side had gotten out. He shut her back in with a sharp thud, which was followed by a second one. And still Evans was holding onto her arm.
Kayla tried screaming. It didn’t make sense but neither did anything else about that evening. Combined with her racing pulse, the gag and her pointless attempts to get away, she now found she had a severe lack of oxygen.
She had never been an asthmatic, so she had nothing to compare the present experience to. Not yet ready to stop fighting, her lips parted instinctively to suck in much needed air. When that didn’t work for obvious reasons, she tried to jerk her hands up to rip the duct tape off her mouth.
Whether because taking it off was out of the question or because he still thought he was just restraining her, Evans kept her arm exactly where it was.
Unable to get the necessary oxygen through her nasal passage down her restricted throat and into her lungs, Kayla was running out of breath. It forced her to quiet just enough so that she could move her head down to her fingers. She had to rip the tape off, or she was certain she would suffocate for the second time that night.
He must have figured she was just twisting away from him again, so she managed to hook a thumbnail between her skin and the adhesive strip before he caught onto her actual intentions. With the added addition of her pointer finger, Kayla pinched the tape and whipped her head to the side, freeing her mouth so she could gasp for breath. The relief was so great that she barely felt the burn of grated skin around her lips.
It took another second for Evans to realize what was really going on.
“Are you okay?” He asked when she didn’t scream, just gulped down intakes of air.
It made sense that he was speaking to her, though she couldn’t tell for sure when filling her lungs was such a top priority. Just in case she was right, she nodded, still inhaling deeply.
“You’re going to be okay,” he continued in a gentle voice. “Take your time and get yourself together. We can wait here a minute or two.”
She heard the words, which might or might not have had a positive effect on her racing pulse this time. Her throat still felt far too restricted, but it wasn’t quite so bad as before. And while the tape was still sticking to her hand, it was off of her mouth, which helped calm her down a little further too.
Kayla was almost feeling physically normal when one of the Suburban doors opened again.
“It’s clear.” It was the man who had wrapped his hand around her neck, she thought. The one who didn’t like to see girls cry.
A pause as he swung himself into the seat and shut the door again. “What happened?”
“Panic attack. She couldn’t breathe,” Evans explained like it wasn’t any big deal.
“Oh.” Silence again, as if the other man was thinking. “Are we going to put the tape back on?”
“Do we have to put it back on?” Evans’ tone was just as mild when he addressed Kayla again. “I’m going to leave it up to you. If you promise to behave, I’ll keep it off and you don’t have to worry about asphyxiating again.”
Another big word, her mind registered dully. “Where are we?”
“Nowhere you need to worry about and nowhere you need to get hurt if you just do as you’re told.”
Considering everything, it was ridiculous of him to tell her to mind her own business. She hadn’t asked them to go to the trouble of abducting her and carting her off to God-only-knew where. But since they had, that made her question completely justified.
Kayla kept that opinion to herself since it wasn’t going to do a milligram of good, instead choosing to ask for further assurance to his pledge. “Promise you won’t hurt me?”
That meant killing or anything else, she thought, hoping her gist was clear without having to be so blatant. It was a ridiculous request since she had no reason to believe they would keep their word, but she needed to hear some guarantee to make her feel even a little better.
Something up in front of the car started rumbling; a familiar noise she couldn’t quite place. It sounded rather like a purr from a very large feline.
She whipped her face toward the sound.
“It’s nothing that’s going to hurt you,” Evans told her, addressing her unspoken question first. “And you’ll be fine as long as you don’t do anything foolish.”
The answer wasn’t any more reassuring than she had expected it to be. Then again, her choices were limited, to say the least. Either she agreed to obey, reevaluating that choice as necessary, or they put the gag back on.
Kayla nodded. “Okay.”
They started forward again at a slow, smooth pace.
“You won’t act out again?” Evans pressed, seeming to trust her as little as she did him.
She didn’t answer right away, morbidly entranced by the seven seconds it took for the car to come to a stop. This time, so did the engine. Behind them, the rumbling noise started up again.
It might have been a garage door.
It wasn’t until the thing bumped into place that she replied. “No.”
She didn’t mean the single syllable. The second she got a viable chance to escape, she planned on taking it.
“We’re going to take the tape off your legs so you can walk in on your own. We’re already inside, so there’s nowhere to run.” He didn’t ask for any further pledges of cooperation, though it was implied in his now brusque intonations.
Kayla nodded anyway.
She sensed him invading her personal space before he actually touched her, so she had a split second to brace herself. He was just moving to free her ankles, but it was still an excruciatingly unpleasant experience: a reminder of how very helpless she was.
As if she had somehow forgotten.
His hands didn’t linger on her. Not even for a second. At least she could be grateful for that. But even when she heard his door open again and felt him get out, she couldn’t stop shaking. Her teeth were chattering badly, and she had to forcibly clench them as Evans guided her out of the car and onto a very solid floor.
It was a humbling experience needing his help from the car into the house. Kayla tried to concentrate on details instead. Details she could give to the cops just as soon as she broke free. Details that would land her abductors in jail for the rest of their miserable lives.
The surface below her was hard. Treated concrete, no doubt. And it took a decent fifteen steps, little though they were, to get from the Suburban to a short set of stairs.
That meant the garage was significantly sized. A two-car unit more than likely. Despite her thick socks, her feet felt freezing by the time she crossed it.
They paused there while someone opened the door. It must have already been unlocked, because she didn’t hear any keys jangle against each other, and no locks clicked out of place. It was quiet enough in the room that she was sure she would have been able to hear such sounds otherwise.
Three stairs up.
Kayla wished she had her hands free to hold out in front of her, not wanting to accidentally run into one of the men up ahead. It was foolish to worry about such a small, insignificant possibility when she had so many more pressing issues to be afraid of. Or maybe it was an act of mental preservation; by focusing on avoiding a stubbed toe or two, she could channel at least some of her attention away from everything else she wanted to escape.
Then she was through the doorway, the very tip of her elbow brushing briefly against the frame. It was thirteen steps forward from there on what felt like a very solid floor. She was certain it wasn’t hardwood and absolutely positive it wasn’t linoleum. Whatever the material, she got the impression that she was walking on something expensive. Though maybe she was just projecting after the noteworthy size of the garage.
Next it was twelve steps at something of an angle, and then onto a strip of plush carpeting. It was probably a hallway because they walked straight for a count of ten, turned what she presumed was a corner, and stopped. After a dramatic pause where she could feel someone’s self-satisfied eyes rake over her from head to fluffy blue socks, the individual who had ostensibly orchestrated her abduction addressed her with the smug certainty of an assured winner.
“Ah. Lucy. It is so good to see you.”

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

The Politician’s Pawn – Chapter One

This past Friday and Saturday, I had a booth at the 2015 CHAP Curriculum Fair up in Harrisburg, PA, where I advertised my editing, tutoring and writing skills.

Now CHAP is a Christian homeschool organization, and it’s fairly conservative. Which is fine by me. I’m a conservative Christian who was homeschooled, myself.

However, being there got me thinking.

I only brought two of my books to sell: my Christian fiction novel “The Adulteress;” and my historical fiction “Maiden America,” which ended up having a strong Christian theme in order to stay historically accurate. So even the most conservative attendees (e.g. Mennonites) shouldn’t have a problem with either novel.

My other books though? I'm not so sure. I mean, I've read plenty of Christian novels that are more graphically vivid than my secular ones, but still...

As I stated in a previous blog, my Faerietales series was never intended to be anything but modern fantasy. Likewise, my Dirty Politics trilogy isn’t supposed to be anything but a political thriller.

Which means that Mennonites who decide to explore my other stories after reading “The Adulteress” and “Maiden America” could be less-than-happy with me. Even more worrisome is the possibility that the same could happen to one of the promising young authors-in-the-making I spoke to over the weekend.

With that concern in mind, I think it only fair to warn potential readers that this series does include rough characters who don't mind their Ps and Qs. In my first few drafts, they went so far as to throw around some choice language. And while my amazing editor of an older sister shamed me into finding creatively classy alternatives to that profanity, the H E double-hockey-sticks word still does come into play several times.

If that offends you, then please stick to “The Adulteress” and “Maiden America.” Otherwise, enjoy one “heck” of a ride…


1 – Uninvited Guests


It was completely dark.
There were no shadows. No shapes. No nothing.
Peering through her peephole to figure out who had just knocked on her door, Kayla Jeateski couldn’t see a single thing. Which wasn’t right.
It was actually nothing short of suspicious.
She knew the glass had been clean and clear three days ago when the delivery guy dropped off her latest online purchase. And there wasn’t a single good reason why it would have changed so drastically in such a short space of time.
In crime shows, of course, blacked-out peepholes were a sure sign of tampering. They indicated that some sinister plot was underway, and woe to the man or woman who ignored that obvious harbinger of doom.
Kayla’s stomach clenched in fear and uncertainty. On the one hand, she was certain she shouldn’t investigate the situation any further than she already had. Yet sheer curiosity warred with her survival instincts, calling her several shades of coward for even considering that the unthinkable could happen to her.
Another knock sounded out from the other side of her apartment door. A total of three raps, there was nothing alarming about the sounds by themselves any more than there had been the first time. Not in her sprawled-out apartment complex where nothing worse than noisy neighbors ever disturbed her peace and quiet.
Whoever was at her door – whoever had drawn her off her couch at nine fifteen in the evening when she wasn’t expecting any visitors – couldn’t mean her any harm, she told herself. Chances were it was a neighbor delivering a piece of misdirected mail. So there was no need to get paranoid.
She fussed with her dark blond ponytail, finding no comfort from the stalling tactic.
Statistically speaking, she wasn’t in any danger. That’s what her rational self determined with dismissive ease. But that reasonable side of her brain still couldn’t justify the peephole; and her gut really was protesting, saying that something about the situation was wrong. Below her short sleeves, the fine hair on her arms were standing straight up, and her shoulders were tense with an anxiety she couldn’t understand.
Irritated with that reaction, Kayla decided to go with a reasonable middle ground. Placing her right hand on the doorknob, her fingers shaking just a little, she didn’t move to undo any of the locks quite yet.
“Hello?” She called through the door, her other hand braced against the cream-colored hallway wall.
Ominous silence was the only response.
Kayla’s eyes narrowed further. It seemed logical to assume that a neighbor or normal visitor would have answered. Unless, of course, he or she had already given up and walked off a mere two seconds after that final knock. Which didn’t seem likely.
It was the third sign that something wasn’t right.
The first was the fact that she never had unexpected visitors so late, especially not when her boyfriend and best friend were both out of the country on the same business trip. The second was the peephole. And if there was a fourth, it was the way her insides had tensed as soon as she realized there was someone outside.
Even so, it annoyed her to not know what was going on. Naturally analytic, Kayla had a strong aversion to uncertainty, and always wanted to take whatever extra steps she could to turn hypotheses into proven facts. It was part of who she was and what she did for a living, and it was never an easy urge to turn off.
Kayla moved her left hand away from the wall to tug at the hemline of her medical-green top. The gesture was more nervous than necessary since her scrubs almost never rode up inappropriately. But she needed that final movement to secure the courage necessary to take a look out into the hallway.
Releasing the deadbolt first, she tensed at the loud clack it made in her otherwise quiet apartment. The lock on the doorknob went next and then she was twisting it open, pulling the door toward her until she could peer out above the sliding chain she’d kept secured. Kayla might be too curious for her own good; but she wasn’t a complete idiot, and so she made sure to maintain some precaution.
Her eyes scanned over everything they could, from her neighbors’ solid blue door across the way; to the light-fixture on their shared ceiling, which they left on around the clock during the winter; to the angle of the hallway as it teed out of sight toward the front entrance and the stairs going up to the second floor. There was nothing unusual about the picture as far as she could tell. Yet she kept looking for signs of something being out of place, somehow certain the situation wasn’t nearly so simple.
No matter how hard she strained her vision though, nothing looked wrong. There wasn’t a single suspicious detail she could detect, and so she pushed the door shut, her brow scrunching in confusion while she worked the other two locks back into place.
Kayla tried to shrug the entire experience off, but her skin was still tingling when she took a step back from her entranceway down the short hall to the living room. The movement brought her just about in line with the archway leading into her kitchen, making it impossible not to feel the draft of cold air seeping in. It felt like the room’s one and only window was wide open.
Kayla froze where she was standing, her eyes tearing up in immediate terror from the implications.
That window hadn’t been open when she got up from her couch a minute ago. In fact, as far as she knew, it had been locked for weeks. She hadn’t thought to air out her place for at least that long when even the afternoons could be intolerably chilly this early in February.
A violent shudder ran down her spine, though not from the cold. The curiosity that had led her to open the door a mere moment ago had vanished. There was nothing inside her that wanted to see why there was winter wind creeping into her first-floor apartment when she knew she hadn’t invited it. It took every ounce of willpower she had to step forward and look around the corner into the kitchen.
That was when he attacked her.
All she saw was black at first. Solid, seamless black covering alarmingly wide shoulders that were exactly at her eye level.
Panic set in before she could fully comprehend what was happening: a white fog of terror that penetrated every inch of her being. Kayla’s mouth opened in the first stage of a scream. But she never got a sound out thanks to one black glove closing fast around her arm, pushing her backward in a single, smooth, commanding motion that ended with her spine thudding against the wall.
Her eyes flew wide with shock, and her mouth gaped open further, either to gasp air in or let it out in the solid shriek she’d originally intended. But the impact of her body against the solid plaster had knocked her breath away, making it impossible to do much of anything, no matter how much she wanted to.
While she struggled to get a proper lungful of oxygen again, her gaze flew up the man’s shoulders to his face. That was covered in black as well. His mouth, the very bottom of his nose and his bright blue eyes were all that showed, making an altogether petrifying image.
Towering over her that way, he didn’t need the ski mask with its four stark holes to be intimidating.
Technically, he didn’t need the gun either, though it went a far way in ensuring her ultimate cooperation. In the first few seconds, however, she had just one physical response. With the weapon not yet aimed at her, she went with her instincts instead of her head.
At least that’s what she tried to do.
Breath back, Kayla was in the process of tensing up to fight when her assailant cut her off again. As if he was inside her head, knowing her moves before she had fully thought them through, the man brought his gun up to the space between her chin and her throat.
She could feel the hard metal pressed against her skin. It wasn’t digging in, so it wasn’t a painful sensation per se. Yet it was still very much there, catching one of her dark blond hairs in such a way that tickled her jaw.
The man in the ski mask regarded her with a clinical degree of objectivity. Thanks to the fourth hole in the fabric, she could see his mouth was set firmly, though not too much so. And if his very blue eyes were any indication, he was nothing short of calm, his breathing barely accelerated.
“You’re not going to scream, right?”
Kayla didn’t shake her head. She didn’t move at all other than the faintest motion of her lips. “No.”
It was excruciating to get that single syllable out; she could barely hear the sound of it beyond the pounding of blood in her ears.
“And you’re not going to fight and make this more difficult than it has to be, right?”
Kayla hadn’t thought it possible, but the question took her terror to a whole new level. “What do you mean by ‘this?’”
“Nothing that’s going to get you hurt,” he promised. “Just following me outside. Coming along quietly. And doing as I say.”
Someone from the other side of her violated kitchen window interrupted before she could speak, which was a small mercy since she had no idea how to reply. It was hard to think straight past the all-consuming anxiety coursing through her system.
“Everything okay?” Cautious though the man sounded, his wasn’t the voice of a savior. He didn’t sound surprised or afraid, just slightly impatient.
Not so much the guy with the gun against her skin. “Everything’s fine. She just wants a guarantee.”
That didn’t seem to sit well with his friend. “Can’t we give her that in the car?”
Blue Eyes shot a single look over his shoulder, and the conversation stopped like that. It was further proof of what Kayla had already determined: that the individual towering over her was comfortable with every aspect of being in charge.
If so, that made it yet another factor decidedly not in her favor. If it wasn’t for the weapon under her chin, she thought her legs might give out.
He turned his full attention back to her. “Believe it or not, I meant what I said: I don’t want to hurt you, and I won’t have to if you cooperate.”
She swallowed hard, the action doing nothing to calm her down. Being inside her apartment with him was terrifying enough. But the thought of leaving with him was even more disturbing.
There was nothing in her that wanted to agree. Yet there was nothing about him that indicated she had a say in the matter. Whether she went without protest, kicking and screaming, or unconscious over his shoulder, Kayla was very certain he was going to win in the end.
He was going to win, and she was going to lose. Miserably.
Her head still craned upward against the gun, she choked on a sob.
He made it obvious he was waiting for an answer. “You really don’t have a choice, Lucy.”
The name, which clearly wasn’t her own, registered on Kayla’s subconscious as a possible slang term she didn’t know. Beyond that brief contemplation, there were too many details demanding her attention to focus on such trivialities.
“You have three seconds to decide,” he warned, his bright blue eyes searching her brown ones without a hint of mischief, only unyielding calculation.
Three seconds was an unacceptable amount of time to set when presenting such a life-changing decision. It was inhumanly cruel. And while she already knew what her answer was going to be – what it had to be – she still didn’t want to say it out loud.
He cocked his head to the side in question. “One more second. Then I’m going to decide for you.”
Kayla let her lashes sweep downward in defeat. Then she swallowed back her emotional horror and physical bile. “Okay.”
The gun left her chin to fall to his side. “Good. Let’s go.”
He pulled her away from the wall, the movement so abrupt that she almost tripped, stumbling over her feet like she had never learned to walk in the first place. It was his grip on her forearm that kept her standing, his fingers digging in with bruising force.
A low cry of pain left her lips.
His hand loosened a little. “Sorry.”
The apology sounded sincere and therefore very wrong coming from someone wearing a mask, holding a gun and carrying out an aggravated kidnapping. Kayla didn’t understand anything that was going on. None of it. Nor did she care to. The only thing she wanted right then was for him and his friend outside to go away.
“Coming out now,” he called in a normal voice as he led her into her kitchen.
The evening temperature streaming through her wide-open window hit the exposed skin on her face and arms without sympathy. It seeped through her scrubs and even the fluffy blue socks she’d put on as soon as she got home.
She shivered violently.
He cast her a quick glance without breaking his stride. “It’ll be warmer in the car.”
If that statement was supposed to be encouraging, it didn’t work.
Another masked man, this one lean and long-waisted, was standing outside her kitchen. “All clear,” he assured with the confidence of someone who had trained for trouble. The way he held his short, angular gun indicated he knew how to handle that too.
He fixed the weapon on her while his friend – or boss or whoever he was – went to grab a chair from the other room. That took a mere minute though, so Kayla was climbing across the window ledge and onto the grassy slope below well before she was psychologically ready.
The first thing she noticed was the stiff, freezing lawn through her socks. The second was how her mesh screen was leaning up against the brick side of the building. It wasn’t slashed or marred in any other way. If anything, it looked like one of the property’s maintenance men had come along and forgotten to put it back in place.
There would be no real sign of foul play when she was gone; no indication for anyone to think about calling the cops.
Her abductors shut the window behind them, then hurried her down into the long alley that ran behind her apartment. Tall lampposts lined the way for residents’ safety, shining brief halos of light into the dusk. But they might as well have been turned off for all the good they provided her that evening. The only thing they did was allow her to see the empty cars parked up and down the makeshift street.
There wasn’t another normal person in sight. She was completely on her own, and she knew it with sickening certainty.
Loose bits of gravel bit into her soles. Yet she couldn’t slow her pace when Blue Eyes once again had his hand clamped above her elbow, his fingers all but touching in the undesirable embrace.
A third man slunk out from behind one of the nearby dumpsters. Also dressed in black from head to toe, and both hands wrapped around a gun of his own, he barely glanced at her. His attention was on everything else around them while he moved in the direction of a dark SUV, a Suburban from what she could tell, idling in the middle of the lane.
It was what she was being pulled toward too.
Parked the way it was, the vehicle was blocking in three other cars, even if there wasn’t anyone to complain about it at that time of night. Its lights were off and the back windows were darkly tinted, so Kayla couldn’t see inside at all. The most she could do was make out how someone was sitting in the driver’s seat.
It was another frightening man, she had no doubt, even if she couldn’t detect any of his features. Which made it four against one.
And he was probably armed too.
Her heart already racing, her breath coming in short gasps that didn’t seem nearly sufficient enough, Kayla recognized that her odds had just gone from sickening to horrific. It had her frantically wondering if she should reevaluate her initial pledge of cooperation.
She watched in silent, shivering dread while the two other men went around to the passenger’s side of the car. That put a solid barrier between her and them, offering a better opportunity to escape.
For all she knew, it would be her last one.
The closer she got to the SUV, the more her muscles tensed and her stomach clenched in a wretched mix of anticipation and uncertainty. There was no way to know which would be worse: the untold dangers of getting into the car or the very high probability of being shot if she tried to get away. But while her brain remained frozen in indecision, her body made the choice for her when Blue Eyes reached for the door and swung it open.
The internal lights went on, illuminating the soft grey fabric of the immaculate seats. Considering all the other details she was trying to come to grips with, the car’s interior shouldn’t have seemed so intimidating. Yet for some reason, it was. When the opposite doors swung open at the same time and two of the masked commando types climbed in, one in the front seat and the other into the middle row, some part of her that wasn’t necessarily logical took over.
Kayla barely even knew what she was doing when she twisted forward to stomp down on her captor’s foot, her free hand curling into a claw aimed at his face.
Neither move worked the way it was intended to.
For one thing, her shoeless state left her at a distinct disadvantage. And even if she had been wanting to drop a few pounds, she still wasn’t close to heavy enough to do much damage to anyone but herself up against a brute like him.
As for her nails, they just raked against fabric. Thick fabric at that.
Her abductor responded by slamming her up against the side of the SUV hard enough to leave her breathless for the second time. It only took a moment for Kayla to get that breath back, but the brief interval gave him an easy opening to shove his gun at someone in the car and spin her around so that she was facing away from him.
She felt the horrid sensation of his hands curling under her armpits, and then the equally offensive impression of being dragged into the car and across his lap.
In no time at all, he had deposited her in the middle seat between him and one of his masked friends, leaning away only to slam the door shut and lock them all inside.
Before the car could roll forward an inch, Kayla was shrieking for dear life.

Monday, May 11, 2015

No Nurses Were Harmed in the Making of This Novel



I have a confession to make. I’m not one of those brilliant authors who can write about stuff I have no concept of.

For example, two years ago, I started a story about a lawyer in New York City who got turned into a vampire. It was going to be a hysterical chicklit piece, but I couldn’t get more than two chapters in. Why? Because I have no idea what it’s like to be a lawyer.

Yeah, yeah, I know. I also don’t have a clue what it’s like to be a vampire. But that seemed a lot easier to write about than the legal stuff. I mean, you don’t have to go to school to learn about sucking people’s blood.

So there you go. You know my shameful secret. My failing as an author. Which is why I had to make my main character in “The Politician’s Pawn” – a character who gets kidnapped and terrorized and, well, I can’t say more without issuing a major spoiler alert – the same exact profession as one of my best friends: oncology nurse.

I actively borrowed from my best friend’s expertise and stories in order to make Kayla Jeateski realistic. However, their personalities and looks are completely different. If I had based Kayla off of Ashleigh in any other way, shape or form, the story would have been a lovely fairytale with a Disney-princess ending.

I might be able to throw characters with my personality and some of my basic looks under the bus. And I can definitely do it to the ones I base off of people who irritate me. But I draw the line when it comes to best friends.

Even writers have their loyalties. Or at least they would if they had the friends I did.

Wednesday, May 6, 2015

You Can’t Draw Your Knees up to Your Chest With Duct Tape Around Your Ankles

If you’re a sane human being (i.e., not a writer), you probably had one of two reactions after reading that title:

1.       What the heck is she talking about?
2.       How in the world does she know that?

But here’s the thing… In order to get a real answer to either of those questions, you probably have to ask an insane human being (i.e., a writer). Your only other option is to find an actual kidnapping victim.

So yes, I’ll admit I duct taped my ankles together while I was writing “The Politician’s Pawn.” I would have duct taped my wrists too, but I found that was physically impossible no matter how many ways I tried to work it out.

Oh, the struggles we writers have to go through for our art.

That’s the thing though… I was writing about someone being kidnapped and tied up, two experiences I had no understanding of. And while I wasn’t about to go out looking for someone to kidnap me (this little writer isn’t THAT insane), I could at least partially solve the problem of the duct tape without causing myself any serious harm.

So I went for it. So what?

Honestly, I don’t understand why people look at me like I’m crazy when I admit this. It’s not even close to the dumbest thing I did while researching these stories. In fact, it’s downright tame compared to what I wanted to try out for Books 2 and 3 (more about that later).

Moreover, because I duct taped my ankles, I learned something very valuable… If you’re sitting on a couch – or presumably a Suburban seat – with duct taped ankles, you can’t draw your legs up to your chest. Can you imagine how embarrassingly inaccurate it would have been if I hadn’t sought out the truth for myself and written otherwise!

I know I’d rather not.

So really then, what I’m trying to say is you’re welcome.

Editor’s note: When I told my brother-in-law this, he immediately went about proving me wrong. But he’s six-foot. And Kayla is five-foot five-inches, which is a lot closer to my height than his. In addition, if anyone watches Castle, let me assure you that I duct taped myself well before he did. He copied me. Or at least he would have had to if he or the show’s writers knew I existed.


Monday, May 4, 2015

They Kicked Down the Door at 7:23!

One October night in 2012 or 2013 (I honestly can’t remember), I was sitting on my comfy couch in my secure living room at my safe residency doing absolutely nothing noteworthy on my laptop and watching something entirely forgettable on TV, when I happened to notice the time.

My clock said it was 7:23, and for some reason, that captured my attention. I stared at it, a little bewildered for a moment, with one thought – one question – imprinted on my brain…

What happened at 7:23?

And then it hit me: They kicked down the door at 7:23!

My imagination took off from there, and I began typing right away. “They” immediately became a gang of four masked men bursting into a tidy little apartment to drag the confused and terrified 28-year-old Kayla Jeateski out to their waiting SUV. The only clue she gets about why they’re abducting her is when the blue-eyed leader calls her Lucy.

It was such an intense opening, and I loved it! I absolutely loved it. It was dramatic, it was intriguing, it was confusing in all the right ways with the main kidnapper showing small signs of genuine compassion that I fully planned to exploit as the story went on.

Seriously, it was awesome.

Unfortunately, just not awesome enough to make the final cut.

As two dear and knowledgeable writers pointed out, there were some logical discrepancies in that first chapter. Basically, I talked about my team of four masked man being obvious professionals, yet they put themselves at unnecessary risk of discovery more than once. So while the opening was without a doubt dramatic, it just didn’t make sense. And so, with much sighing and moping, I changed it all.

The first chapter of “The Politician’s Pawn” no longer starts out at 7:23. It doesn’t mention 7:23 at all. Nor does the rest of the book, for that matter.

But it’s still awesome and intense, and sets up one wild ride of a trilogy that took even me by surprise more than once. Poor Kayla Jeateski wasn’t the only one scrambling to keep up with the plot as it rushed forward, twist by twist and turn by turn. And in the end, the beginning wasn’t the only aspect that took a far different route than I had planned.

Yet even so, I’ll never forget how it all still started at 7:23.

Wednesday, April 29, 2015

Switching From Fantasy to Thrillers – Why Do I Write Across Genres?

I might be working on Faerietales 4, but I’m done publishing fantasy fiction for the year. I’m now switching over to the world of thrillers. Political thrillers, to be precise.

Which means that as of the 24th of May, I will have published Christian fiction, historical fiction, fantasy and modern fiction.

All I need to do is add in some mystery, chick-lit, young adult and sci-fi, and maybe the next “Fifty Shades of Grey,” and I’ll be a mini Barnes & Noble.

Just kidding about “Fifty Shades of Grey.” I have soooooo much more dignity than that. Not to mention talent.

I also don’t have plans to plot out mysteries, not because I don’t like them but because I’m not sure if I have the right type of mind to write that way. More power to those authors who do though.

But other than those two genres, I’m open to whatever the muse strikes me with. And since my particular muse likes to strike me with a whole lot of randomness, that means, in some ways, she’s a lousy one to have.

You see, most authors make a living for themselves by building up an audience. And how do you build up an audience? You appeal to the same people over and over and over again so that they keep buying up each new book that you debut.

Most people do have a particular genre they consistently turn to. Hence the reason why fantasy writers stick to writing fantasy.

Christian fiction writers don’t write anything but Christian fiction.

Historical fiction writers and thriller writers? Yeah… It’s usually the same thing.

My muse, however, apparently isn’t a capitalist. Or maybe she is, but just isn’t the brightest entrepreneurial spirit in the box.

Go figure I’d get a flighty one.

With that said, I cannot wait to tell you more about Dirty Politics 1: “The Politician’s Pawn” next month.

Because as inconsistent as my muse is, she sure can come up with one heck of a story line…

Monday, April 27, 2015

Faerietales 4: Because Trilogies Are So Cliché

At the beginning of the month, I mentioned how I’d started another story despite my plans to work on completely different novels.

So here’s the big reveal now that  I've officially published Faerietales 3 (available on Amazon.com in both print and Kindle copies)... I’m working on Faerietales Book 4.

It had to happen, I suppose, considering all the questions I left unanswered at the end of the appropriately named “Up in the Air.”

It’s not a cliff-hanger ending. Don’t worry, guys. I had originally intended this to be the last Sabrina-focused book, and so I gave her a promising new future. But it did still end in such a way that left a whole lot of room for a whole new story.

At least that’s what a certain lovely, lovable, obnoxious someone I know told me after reading Book 3. And I guess I caved to the pressure.

Nah… That’s not being fair to her. If anything, she got my imagination fired up. That’s it. The rest is all my fault.

So here I am, typing away, reusing memorable tertiary characters from “Not So Human” and “To Err Is Faerie” that I never thought I’d write about again. Oh yeah, and I’m introducing a new character based on one of the greatest emotional con-artists I’ve ever personally met.

Unexpected though it is, it’s totally fun!

Don’t ask me what the title is, because I’ve got nothing right now. But I do have a good grasp of where the plot is going. And let me tell you… It’s going to rock! As is Sabrina. No more scarred little faerie… This princess is ready to rule.

Since I’m still in the early stages of writing, don’t expect this baby to fly free until next year. But here are a few elements I may or may not have already written into existence:

·         There may or may not be a wedding involved.
·         There may or may not be a faerie plot to kill humans for a change.
·         And Sabrina may or may not have to work hand in hand with the HPAC at some point.

I wish I could say more, but I really can’t. For one thing, it would be giving away too much of the recently-debuted “Up in the Air,” which is now available on Amazon.com in both Kindle and print copies.

But also, I don’t like locking myself into anything. I reserve the right to go back and edit out anything I want to until I push that “publish” button.

In the meantime, feel free to post any suggested titles in the comments below. I’ll take all the help I can get!